The part of my tapestry of life right now is very richly colored and simple. Although there is one main thread missing (D) the rest is beautiful.
Sometimes I stop and remind myself the life I have right now is not my normal life and it won’t last forever. It's like a perfectly beautiful movie without the conflict of a plot.
D is off in the Middle East building a business and I have the luxury of living in an adorable condo overlooking a wonderful marina filled with large, gorgeous boats while I wait for the arrival of the first baby born to my youngest child, my own baby.
Thoughts of my previous life come up every so often. I think of the magazine in Virginia often but I would dread to have to go back to running it. If I were still the owner, being here would not be possible. I wouldn't miss what I am doing right now for anything. I am having some of the best times of my life.
Would it be better if D was here? MOST DEFINITELY, but it would also be different. Right now it is mother and daughter getting ready for a baby. I have never done this before and I kind of like it. :-)
I loved my work. It was a wonderful 24 years and, at most times, a whole lot of fun. However, it was also very hard with extremely long hours and stress that ranked right up there with childbirth.
There is not a of lot of stress in my life right now. This morning I went for a long bike ride around the surrounding neighborhood madeup of well-manicured homes. Afterwards I went swimming in the condo pool listening to my favorite music on my swim MP3. Talk about luxury. . . I am a very lucky woman.
After my swim I walked down to the marina to get a close up look at some manatees swimming there. I thought there were 4 or 5 but when I got closer there were at least 9. One of them came right up to me at the dock and posed for a picture.
I know life won’t always be so good and certainly there will be times when I am not nearly as happy as I am right now, but I did stop and savor the moment. Maybe I can remember this feeling to get me through the hard times. All I have to do is figure out how to remember to remind myself. . . .
Cheers to the tapestry of life!
Brenda